Day 1: Sick Again


Musings / Friday, June 22nd, 2018

There’s this hobby that I care about – one that I study, watch videos all about, think about and plan for constantly… but never stick with long enough to get anywhere. It’s called – taking care of my body.

I was raised to sit silently, not make a mess, not be seen, and to eat packaged foods. That’s what I know and that’s what I’ve always done. Being sedentary has taken a toll on my life, being that I’m 33 now and very uncomfortable most days. I could certainly be worse, I am very, very lucky to be as healthy and “fit” as I am, but I know deep inside that I am neglecting something more important that anything else, and it feels awful. I have this here domain that was part of a project I was working on, and still may work on in the future, but I decided to put all of that on hold while I take a few months off from work to delve deep into this bullshit I’ve never quite figured out.

That’s right, I’ve put everything on hold to pursue the one elusive goal that’s been banging around in my head for years – getting fit, flexible, and well fed. My mind is full of chatter, my heart constantly racing, and I am just SO DONE. I have everything I need to make this a reality, so, here it is… my journey into the unknown.